My allegiance as far as I am concerned is not to this nation but to my King and Creator in Heaven, the Holy Trinity as preached in the Holy Bible.
I still find it hard to put my faith in human reasoning. Everytime I try it turns out to be too illogical, too whimsical, too irrational, and yet I have this compulsion to cling to the Faith I profess.
Perhaps this post has to do with the fact that the Holy Week has passed.
Well it was anything but Holy for me... all that sin and guilt still plagues me after all these years.
But it was a week to remember the events of the Cross and the Empty Tomb- the Death and the Resurrection of Christ the King.
It was a week to reflect on why I am called to believe.
Some say that only the weak would have a need for a religion- for only the weak need a crutch to live life by and an imaginary friend whom they can pour out their whining to.
But I know what I know- what I have seen and experienced- and its just that I lack the means to express it in a more lucid and cogent form that makes more sense to the Logic-worshipping Atheists out there.
And as to the charge that the weak need crutches- it can also be argued that only fools would depend entirely on the efforts of their own flawed hands- and all human hands are flawed. Indeed, everything about humanity is tainted with imperfection, and thus complete reliance on human possesions- on human brain, on human strength, on human feeling- would seem not only a greater weakness than those who cling to Faith, but also a pure foolishness and abject stupidity that is symptomatic of ego and pride- human ego and human pride that has so often decieved men into thinking themselves as gods.
You want proof that humanity is flawed and failed?
Look at the newspapers. Look at the greed and carnage and hunger. Look at history. The starvation and wars and oppression and injustice. The brutality and avarice and poverty. What more proof does one need? Or does one insist on glorifying the quantum leaps in technology and science and knowledge? I think that despite of all our achievements, the fact that we have failed to eradicate JF Kennedy's "Enemies of Mankind" (ie hunger and disease etc) shows even more flaw and failure.
Example:
For what purpose do we have so much wondrous medical technology when it is used to save only, say, the 20% of humanity who live in the First World?
Weak people would lack the strength to accept the reality that humanity is flawed and cannot be relied upon to build a better future. Weak people would be unable to face up to the failures of humanity and find delusional excuses to convince themselves that they do not need a higher moral guidance. Weak people would be unable to resist the beastial aspects of their human nature and turn to the worship of pleasure- weakness harmlessly laughed off as "it's only human" or "mere hedonism".
So who then is the weaker? He who needs God or he who laughs at God?
Not to mention the more foolish...
Only a fool would rely purely on human abilities. Sure there'll be success- but for how long?
What comes after that? What comes after you've done everything you've set out to do?
What would you be living for?
I dont know why I compose this. I guess its a reply to the release of the Gospel of Judas and the coming release of the Da Vinci Code movie next month.
I'd thought that the Da Vinci Code was a mere spot of fiction- just a harmless controversy born of an attempt to make a quick buck (or a few million bucks). I even mocked the Church elders who ranted on and on about it.
I figured that if they were responding so vehemently to fiction, would'nt it mean that they were taking such fiction seriously, and thus giving it even more credibility?
But what galvanised me into supporting those looney elders was the fact that on reading the book again, I found in it a disturbing attempt to make everything in it seem real. Ok, so the Priory of Scion and Opus Dei did exist as what was claimed, but the plot of fiction was made out to be real- as real as the historic facts! Dan Brown has indirectly put the idea that Sophie Neveu is the great great great great grand-daughter of Jesus Christ on the same pedestal as the fact that Leonardo DaVinci painted the Mona Lisa. That to me is quite a dangerous thing to do.
And so I can no longer apologise for what I say when I defend what I believe in.
